Sometimes I don't feel like a whole person...

...I have so many different parts of my personality. I think the people in my life only get their version of me and I am never everything that I am. Part of the problem is that I am so moody and depending on the way I feel affects the way I present myself. I am mostly level but I think at times I don't even know what it will be that sets me off. Many times I have tried to be the person that someone wants me to be. Whether it is a boyfriend or a family member I have spent much of my life trying to act the way people want me too. "Toughen up! No talking back. Your too skinny. Are you gay?" Nobody ever really asked me what was wrong with me. They usually just came right out and told me. I don't know a time that I ever could just be myself. I have made it my mission as I get older to be more of the man I know I am inside. I don't think I have ever really changed from the person I was when I was a teenager. Old friends that reconnect with me now think I have but I think I just learned how to control myself more. As I get older I hope to allow all of who I am to come out. I don't want to be afraid anymore to just be myself.